Time seems to be slower when you are not feeling well and that you’re counting down the minutes until you can go home and have a bit of a snooze. I have been feeling under the weather for the last two days.
I felt so heavy-headed yesterday after church – I don’t know whether it was because of the MSG in my dinner or what. Today, I’m just feeling so lethargic – I really hope I won’t get sick as I have heaps to do once the research proposal and the journal paper edits come back from my supervisors. It’s only 3.30pm at the moment – around one and a half hours to go before I can head home.
It’s been a cool and cloudy day here – it was sunnier in the morning and then the clouds came and lingered around. My bones are aching and I long for the comfort of my own couch or bed. :sigh: At least it’s Winter Solstice today when we have the shortest day and the longest night (Today: Sunrise: 7.23am; Sunset: 5.11pm). It will go uphill from now – the sunset tomorrow will be at 5.12pm. 🙂
It’s amazing though how God moves in my moment of self-pity, though. I checked my personal email through the web and I received an update from a family who are out in a mission in an island in Indonesia. They are returning to Australia in the next five months and in the newsletter, they chronicle what God has been doing in their life and the numerous challenges that they have to go through. I read about the simple things that can bring such joy – for instance when they prayed about the power outage and God answered. It’s so easy for me to get caught up in lofty theories, papers, data and concepts and forget (yet again) that sometimes the simple things in life can bring so much joy. So Ibu Jakki and Pa’ Agus, thank you for the update – it has blessed me in the early onset of my ‘man-flu’. Hahaha. 🙂
It reminds me of the thoughts I’ve been having in the past couple of days as well. Not being a yuppie and a ‘professional’ anymore, I looked at suited-up office workers with a sense of reminiscence and mild envy. I see them as being professional and representable – and yet, had I looked at them through the eyes of a fellow professional when I was still working at the bank – I would’ve seen them as people who were tired, overworked, stressed and worried – the fact that they were all suited up would have been missed. I fail to appreciate the greater degree of freedom that I am enjoying in being able to choose what I can wear daily. I can still be the stylish academic by coming to the uni all suited up or come to my office in jeans and jumper.
It’s all just a matter of perspectives. Again, it’s a timely reminder that we must be thankful of the spot that we are allowed to be in at this very moment – as a professional, a housewife, a househusband, a child, a parent, a student, a teacher, somebody who is blessed financially, or somebody who is allowed to experience some financial difficulties. We just need to look up, continue to smile, and be thankful.
Even when my bones are aching and I wish I could have a snooze.
I’m alive and fully blessed.