As a borderline introvert and an extremely private person, it’s not natural for me to share my challenges and inner turmoil. My blog has provided me with an outlet for me to slowly come out of my shell and dismantle the huge barriers that I have erected throughout the years. Of course, it is still a controlled release – haha – I can’t really write what I face and what I think without any filtering whatsoever. I can still hold on to some compartments of thoughts and challenges that I face that only I and God know. 🙂
When you start putting your thoughts, actions and challenges in writing – it’s hard to control who reads what and what people know about you. Once I start blogging, it’s quite strange when your friends actually know what I did and what happened to my job applications, or about my situation, without me telling them directly. Then it dawned on me that they had been reading my blog too. 🙂 Which is alright really – what makes it an interesting challenge is to weave my way through my comings-and-goings, share what I think, without hurting anybody in the process. 🙂 Blogging as also allowed me to release some of the tension that I’m experiencing currently – I can pour out my thoughts and feelings without any judgment or personal bias that may happen if I share them in ‘real life’.
Through my blogging, I have also gained a couple of new friends who have now become my ‘Facebook’ friends as well. Haha. 🙂 Sometimes I wonder who’s been reading my blog in far flung places – so if this is you – please feel free to leave me a note. 🙂 It would be nice for me to know who you are. You probably know a lot more about me than I know about you. *laugh*. 😆
As for what I have been doing today – well, the day started quite early because my housemate came home from his trip from Melbourne at about 6.30am. I got up and had my coffee, along with a pork bun that he brought over from Melbourne. He went to bed afterwards for a quick shuteye, and it seemed like a good idea for me as well so I returned to bed to have some sleep. I got up about three hours ago, cleaned my aquarium and used the poo water for my parched trees in the front yard. My plan is to take a shower and then do a little bit of cleanup around the house (or vice versa). I finally received the call from the recruitment agency – the lady told me that my application wouldn’t proceed further because the organisation were looking for a different type of person. The organisation are going to re-advertise the position with some modification. She did say that the client mentioned that I presented myself well in the interview – so I suppose, it’s a lot like dating, eh? 🙂 My challenge now is to get the company to like me enough so they could ‘marry’ me. Haha. 🙂
On a more serious note, I really really hope and pray that my time of uncertainty will end soon. I have started to detect a faint smell of water in my current state of wilderness. I can’t wait to find my green pasture so I can rest myself, build my strength and work my way and show the world what I am capable of.