Waiting is such a draining and frustrating activity – it forces you to stay still and look on your being rather than focusing on your deeds and external things. It’s the week before Christmas and time is running out for me – the prospect of having a jobless Christmas and having to close off my annual Kimber Chronicles on an anti-climactic end is staring me in the face. I am still faintly optimistic – I can’t let the flame die out.
I received two calls today from two different executive researchers who mentioned pretty much similar things – that the company that they contacted had frozen recruitment, even contract employees. They wanted me to tell them the outcome of the interview that I had last week, but I am also still waiting for an update myself. I would love to join the organisation because the position seems like a good fit with my background. I have sent an email yesterday to the recruiter who facilitated the interview, just giving her an update and also asking for any update on the prospect. She was on leave last week so I thought it was a good opportunity for me to send her an email.
On top of the calls that were kind of expected, my mood was again thumped by the gloomy news about the global economy that was set to deteriorate next year. Even the Singapore expat forum that I visit regularly is currently discussing the global downturn as well as the humongous loss caused by Bernie Madoff. HSBC, among others, is reported to lose US$1bn over the scam perpetrated by Madoff. How could you not feel gloomy reading about one hit after the other? 🙁
I did find a spark through one of my friends’ Facebook status update – I don’t even know her personally nor virtually. She added me as her friend because I was a ‘friend’ to another guy who I really have no idea who either. He requested to be added to my friends list after I added Ps. Jonathan Pattiasina into my Facebook list. She just said “Segala sesuatu indah pada waktunya.” (Everything is beautiful in its time) – a snippet of a verse from Ecclesiastes 3:11.
The phrase also reminded me of the verse that I shared on Sunday to the congregation, that was taken from Hebrews 12:1-15. I was reminded of the verses from Hebrews 12:7-11, “If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom a father does not chasten? But if you are without chastening, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate and not sons. Furthermore, we have had human fathers who corrected us, and we paid them respect. Shall we not much more readily be in subjection to the Father of spirits and live? For they indeed for a few days chastened us as seemed best to them, but He for our profit, that we may be partakers of His holiness. Now no chastening seems to be joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.” Yup, it’s painful for me indeed – it grieves the heart, but I’m sure at the end I can look back and see the fruit of this disciplining and chastening.
Ecclesiastes 3:11a “He has made everything beautiful in its time.“